So the reason I'm starting this blog comes down to a sore throat.
A few weeks ago, God told me to start a website called "Publishing Peace Upon the Mountains," which I thought was a pretty dorky and presumptuous title. I also had nothing to say, so I declined. Over the next week or two, every time I turned to my scriptures, they opened right up to one of the surprisingly abundant references to this theme, and I reluctantly agreed to start tinkering.Then I let everything sit for a bit and basically intended to let it sit forever.
I woke up a couple days ago with a knife in my throat and did everything I know to do to get rid of it. Nothing worked for long, and finally, this morning, I was told clear as a bell that God had told me to write and that I could count on a sore throat until I decided to obey,
So here we are.
When I asked for clarification on what on earth I should write, here is what I found:
"And blessed are they who shall seek to bring forth my Zion at that day" 1 Nephi 13:37
"How beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him... that sayeth unto Zion, Thy God reigneth" Mosiah 12:21
So I guess that's what I'll endeavor to do, although it seems like a tall order. Here's the thing: I've been a doubter my whole life and have not hesitated to admit it. Faith is hard, and for a long time, the harder it would get, the more I'd feel like I was using my brain properly. Recently, however, I realized that a mighty change has occured in the past few years, so slowly I'd not noticed it before. I'm not a doubter anymore. I've received too many evidences; my heart has been changed. Life has become a lot more beautiful.
I've always felt reluctant to talk about God and to declare myself a "believer" in unprotected territory, but I see now how ridiculous I've been. My definition of protected territory has been very, very narrow, even excluding most Mormons. If I can't be a witness to those who share my faith, what am I even doing? And if I can see my life transformed by a deeper exploration of and commitment to my faith, if I can watch my home be filled with miracles and feel my heart expand, then it's only selfishness that keeps me from sharing the source.
Here is my repentance. Here is my declaration that I am, in fact, a believer of many things and a knower of some things. Although I want my words to reach whoever will be receptive to them, I will write with my fellow Latter-day Saints chiefly in mind. It's time for me to embrace my people, I think--especially those of my people who find themselves in the doubter category who'd rather not be there. With that said, may this space be one where any who read can feel peace and know that "Thy God reigneth." That, at least, is something that I know, and I'm excited to add my voice to so many already publishing peace, upon the tops of the mountains and in every other place.
Here's to bringing forth Zion and soothing sore throats!
Exploring the spiritual side of things. Brevity is not my forte.