Several weeks ago, I heard something a person I don't know said about me that I've been pondering on since. She said that I seemed like a teacher who taught for myself rather than for other people, in a negative way. I’m glad, because it confirmed something I've been wrestling with since the beginning of this blog.
First of all, this woman was in many ways correct, and I'm not embarrassed about that. Teaching is the best thing ever, and it gives me tons of satisfaction to watch people experiencing what I know to be awesome. She was wrong about why, but she was right about one thing, which is nicely summed up in the Book of Mormon:
“He commandeth that there shall be no priestcrafts; for, behold, priestcrafts are that men preach and set themselves up for a light unto the world, that they may get gain and praise of the world; but they seek not the welfare of Zion.” (2 Nephi 26:29)
It was never my intention to set myself up as a light, but I’ll admit there’s always been room for confusion there. The purpose was to “proclaim peace,” which, if you check out what that means in context, is proclaiming repentance. I thought it meant saying things that made people feel good… which repentance does, assuredly--but usually not at first. At first it often kinda burns. Repentance is recognizing the error in your understanding and actions and remedying it, allowing you to turn more fully to God. It’s getting back on the path that takes you there.
So I’ll start. First, I’m taking down all pages linked to anything commercial I’m doing. There is no reason for the things I write to be attached in any way to income generation. If you would like to know when and where I’m teaching or having sessions, etc., feel free to contact me via email or Facebook.
It is essential to me that everyone understands that I love kundalini yoga and meditation for the primary reason that it brought me more fully to Christ. If it doesn’t do that for you, then I don’t recommend it. Kundalini is not The Truth, but it’s an excellent aid for many people in coming to The Truth. My enthusiasm for it is born from the specific awakenings it has wrought upon me, but I have always recognized that it in and of itself is incomplete, as are all practices and systems that organize understanding. What’s essential in this life is that each of us comes to God and makes a personal abiding connection with heaven, and this yoga and meditation strengthened so much in me that needed strengthening and tore down so much that needed tearing down before that could happen. It helped me believe possible the things that seemed too good or too fantastical to be real, and God is all about asking us to believe what our earthly senses veil. We must turn from Illusion to Reality.
I am on a never-ending quest to come more fully into Reality. There is still so much I can’t see that I might as well be sitting in a dark room with my eyes closed, but there are some few things I have learned that cannot be taken away from me. The most important among these is that Jesus Christ is my Savior and the Savior of the whole world. He loves me and all the world with love we cannot comprehend or reciprocate. He wants so desperately for us to know him and has shown us how we can do that.
Anything I write, I write because I love God. Because I’m a pridefully weak wee mortal, I often do so in a flawed way that massages my ego. For this, I apologize. If ever you read something here that is not ratified by heaven to you, please chuck it away and think no more of it. My hope is that we can all grow together in our understandings and forgive each other when we err.
Sat Nam and Wahe Guru!
Exploring the spiritual side of things. Brevity is not my forte.